A TESTIMONY OF HEALING—BRINGING GREATER UNITY WITHIN

In our last writing I (Jerry) shared how we can live with disunity or fragmentation within our souls, and how this can affect our relationship with God and with others.  I also shared that that the cry that Jesus has for unity (John 17:20-23) within His corporate body starts with the cry for unity within each individual.

Nance, a dear friend of ours, recently shared with us an experience that she had with the Lord just a few months of ago, and has given us permission to share it with you.  We have known Nance for a number of years and can testify that she is indeed a very mature Christian.  She has received healing ministry on different occasions over the years and has ministered healing and deliverance with much gifting and anointing to many people.  She is also an effective prophetic intercessor.  As you read her testimony of what happened, we believe you will see how one can live a life following and serving God, yet have one or more areas within that are fragmented or disconnected from the fullness of life that the Father desires for us.       

[NANCE’S TESTIMONY] 

STRESS, TRAUMA AND DEPRESSION

Last year my mother suffered with cancer, went blind, was near death, then miraculously regained her eyesight and was healed from cancer.  On top of this my sister was in a serious accident and my own family seemed to be moving toward the world and away from God.  Depression moved in at the end of May.  Mostly in hindsight, this despair was more from a deep place of not connecting with God.  I felt “moanings” from deep inside rather than outside, even though there certainly had been enough outwardly.  “I went here and there, but could not find my lover,” and this gave me the most anguish of my life.  I thought I was dying.  This lasted three months.

LIFE BEGINS TO RETURN

I’m not sure when the life began to come back.  I had just enough energy return to begin to rise up.  I began to listen to and spend times “soaking” a great deal with music that I knew had an anointing for healing--especially healing depression.  I could feel this breaking up the ground in places that I could not specifically identify, yet I knew it was occurring.  People around me were always speaking into my life and prayers were going forward.  Toward the end of September I sensed that God was asking me to fast for four days, and for the first time in two years, I was able to finish the fast.  That was God.  Several months before this week of fasting, I had signed up for a deliverance conference at a local church.  It seems that I can never get enough training or deliverance myself to really make the difference that I am always looking for.  Finally the day of the conference arrived and I tried to talk myself out of going, but I gave in.

A DELIVERANCE CONFERENCE

At the conference I felt alone again, wondering what I am doing there.  Worship began and, as always, it was sweet--especially for a thirsty soul.  They began with teaching on curses and generational curses followed by ministry, and that was good.  They followed with teaching on ungodly beliefs with more ministry, and that, too, was good.  They then proceeded with a very beautiful and powerful declaration and prayer concerning rejection in utero (while in the womb).  This was so moving, but only a tear came and then they quickly moved into the healing of painful memories.

HEALING MEMORIES--RESTORING A DAUGHTER AND A BRIDE

Healing of memories is when you ask Jesus to show you a memory and then invite Him into it for healing.  My memory went like this:  I had grown up in a house where there were excessive amounts of all kinds of pornography, and I was exposed at an early age.  The eye is the window to the soul and pornography is so easily received into one’s life.  I also have known that this is a generational issue.  Then the Lord showed me, all at once it seemed, all the men in my life and the many abuses that came with some of them.  One by one Jesus and the Father came and received me out of each one.  Can you imagine a life of pain, shame and worthlessness and Jesus and the Father coming to rescue you out from these hurtful situations?  The tears began to flood my soul.  God was revealing in the core of my soul the essence of my beliefs.  Most of my life I had felt like a "prostitute" and had even called myself one.  When I got married, I thought this would make me legitimate--but of course it did not.  I carried that inner core (ungodly belief) about myself into my marriage and everywhere I went.  But on this day my Father says to me, "You are no longer a prostitute, you are a daughter," and Jesus says to me, "You are no longer a prostitute, but you are my Bride.”  I guess the tears will always come when I remember this, as well as when I think of all of those who serve the Lord yet are disconnected, alone, barren and empty.  What "grace" God so greatly extended to me in those earlier days and even more so on THIS day of healing.

MINISTERING BUT DISCONNECTED—THE NEED FOR HIS HEALING TOUCH

I have shared the gospel, healed the sick and cast out demons in the name of Jesus.  I have moved mountains in reaching the city for God and praying for racial reconciliation, but I confess to you today, I did not know my God and there was a disconnection that I could not really understand.  I was always told to just believe in the promises of God--and I tried--but something was missing.  I had more doubt than belief.  Now for the first time, God is making a believer out of me.  Now that I am connected, my whole world is changing.  My prayers are different.  I have confidence in His love.  I can’t wait to be with Him.  I believe God is going to restore me now, and I am so thankful for His love and mercy.  Once I was dead and now I am alive!  Truly!  God is always good; always love, always with us.  What moves His hand, I don’t fully understand, but however and whenever He does it--it is very good!  [END OF TESTIMONY]

SHARING YOUR STORY

We are grateful to Nance for allowing us to share her story of healing.  We overcome by the blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony (Rev. 12:11), and we welcome your “stories” as well as we seek to walk in greater unity within and corporately.

From the Father’s Heart,

Jerry and Denise Basel.